31 January 2020

Life

This week's Five Minute Friday prompt is: LIFE.

Life is a funny thing....

After a relationship ending in my early twenties a friend assured me, 'You never know what's around the corner. You could be married with a baby on the way this time next year.'

I nodded along, not really believing a word she said. All I could see was a life of singleness stretching ahead of me and that's not what I wanted.

But it wasn't long before my lovely husband came along and we have now been happily married for a couple of decades.

A little over two years ago, we were hit with a juggernaut full of heartache and pain which brought with it mental ill health among other things. Twelve months in and I felt like I'd had enough. I was sick of traumatic memories from the past returning and throwing me into fresh mental and emotional turmoil.

I angrily yelled at God, 'I hate life!' I couldn't see any way out of the dark tunnel I found myself in. I wanted God to know how much I hated life because one of Jesus's titles in the New Testament is 'Life'. There were times I hated God.

Thankfully, Jesus is steering me through the dark tunnel and there are times now that I can even see a pinprick of light at the end of it.

Still, there are some days I'm less thrilled about being alive than others. But I do know now that Jesus is the meaning of life. Without Him I can't see the point, but with Him my life does have meaning.

6 comments:

  1. I'm glad you're knowing Jesus with you, guiding you through that dark tunnel and back towards the light. I agree, it's him who gives our lives meaning. Visiting from FMF #6.

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  2. So true ... my hubby and I have walked that road of mental illness as well, but life truly is precious and every day we have a choice to make a difference. Do not discount the value of small things. May Jesus light your way!

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  3. Sometimes I really have not wanted
    to have the life I've had.
    It's been grim and it's been haunted
    by the futile and the sad.
    I've been where fewer chaps would dare
    to go, to do a job of work,
    but the world, it did not care,
    and thought of me as a jerk
    who fought others' wars for pay,
    who'd kill and die for the money,
    whose violence was state of play
    but it was rather funny
    that they never understood;
    I just tried to do some good.

    #1 at FMF this week

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