God on Mute by Pete Greig is necessary.
I first read it a few months after my life changed abruptly following the re-emergence of long-buried traumatic childhood memories. I'd suffered through a year of mental health issues, grief, anger, huge loss and loneliness. I was raging at God and wondered if I'd lost my faith, indeed whether it was even worth having faith in Him.
Then I got hold of this book.
When you feel you're broken into a thousand pieces and fragile, this is a safe book to read. Pete doesn't gloss over pain with well-meaning platitudes. He knows how it feels. He goes to dark places and looks at the difficult questions.
I found this book so helpful and healing. It's one I keep coming back to and each time I get more out of it.
It is split into four sections, based on the traumatic events at the end of Jesus' life:
- Maundy Thursday: How Am I Going To Get Through This?
- Good Friday: Why Aren't My Prayers Being Answered?
- Holy Saturday: Where Is God When Heaven Is Silent?
- Easter Sunday: When Every Prayer Is Answered.
Pete writes in a balanced, gentle, real way. He believes in miracles; he's seen God do some truly amazing things within and through the 24/7 prayer movement. But he also knows there are times when God is silent and the much-needed, longed-for miracle doesn't happen. What then?
If you are struggling with horrible circumstances, angry with God for being silent and not coming through for you, I highly recommend this book.
I've awarded it 5* though it's easily worth twice that.